Random Ramblings

Hello! Hope you’ve all found me at my new home (I guess so if you’re reading this ;-))

Just thought I’d post a quick update – lots of thoughts swirling around my brain!

First of all I made it through my 21-day cleanse – yahoo! I must say, it was easier than I thought and I’ve been feeling GREAT since I started it. Some of you may recall that I have some back problems. I had surgery three years ago to repair a herniated disc but I still suffer from residual pain from time to time. Before I began the cleanse my back had been acting up again – that’s actually what prompted me to do it – it’s supposed to help with inflammation. Anywhooo, I don’t know if it’s a coincidence or not but three days into the cleanse, my back pain virtually disappeared and (knock on wood) hasn’t returned! Other positive things I’ve noticed – my skin looks good and, heck, I’ve even lost a little weight – I’m definitely way less bloated. I’m going to continue to try and avoid some of the foods I eliminated while on the cleanse (gluten, dairy, refined sugar). I just seem to do better when I avoid these foods (unfortunately I LOVE them).

What else can I tell you…oh my Lupron debacle. I ended up getting it from the pharmacist I dealt with in the city up here where I did my former IVF attempts. He was able to track it down for me and then shipped it to me on the bus – so helpful…such a stark contrast to the total d*bag pharmacist I had to deal with in February to get my micro-dose Lupron.

Oh, remember how I was having some breast pain after my February cycle? Well I did talk to my GP about it but she wasn’t overly concerned. Eventually it went away but it’s been back again for the past few weeks. For some reason breast pain scares the ba-jeezus out of me. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s just because I’ve always had lumpy, bumpy breasts (I was diagnosed with fibrocystic breasts at 18) and that just makes me think of the ‘C’ word for some reason. I’ve had mammograms and seen specialists and everything has always come back OK but for some reason any sort of pain/tenderness in the taa-taa area makes me nervous. I think I also worry about the massive doses of estrogen I’ve been pumping into my body over the past few years and the possible side effects of that…I don’t know. I try not to worry about it but it’s tough when they’re so sore. I’ll mention it to my GP again at my annual physical next week.

Other than that, not a whole lot happening. I think I’m ready for this FET – nervous, of course, excited too…just ready to get it done I think. I’m trying not to think about it too much. Not sure how much I’ll be blogging in the weeks leading up to it. I know some of you are anxious to follow along but I seem to handle things better when I step back a bit. Nonetheless, I wil absolutely keep you all posted – just not sure of the timeline.

Hope everyone out there in blog land is doing well!



Hello ladies! It has been a LONG time since I’ve posted. No real reason, except that I haven’t had a ton going on and I’ve been trying to keep a promise to myself to not obsess over all things IF-related. It’s been going well. (I have been following you ALL faithfully, however!)

Hmm, so what’s new…what’s new? 

Well, I finally started my Depot Lupron treatment this week. I had my first injection on Tuesday. Not much to report in terms of side effects so far. I hope it’s this easy the entire two months but I know it’s still really early. A gal can dream though, right?!

I received my FET calendar yesterday. Looks like transfer will be sometime around the end of July so still awhile to go. I’m OK with waiting though. We’ve waited this long, what’s a few more months. Plus, I’ve been really watching my diet lately and hope to drop a few pounds before transfer. I want to be in the best possible shape when I’m reunited with my precious embies so a few extra months is OK by me.

One thing that is causing me to lose a little sleep is this whole antihistamine protocol. I think I talked about it in my last post and some of you addressed it, but I still don’t know what to do. I’m not worried at all about the possibility of weight gain (which I talked about in my last post) but I can’t stop thinking about Dr. M’s warnings of possible birth defects. She did say that they have not seen any cases of this at CCRM but that there have been reported cases of birth defects (she specifically mentioned cleft palate) in babies born to moms on prednisone. I know that the dosage for the antihistamine protocol is low but it still has K and I worried and wondering what to do.

There are pros and cons obviously. The only con is the issue mentioned above. The pro is obviously that there is a belief that it may help the body to not reject the embryo. The main reasons that I asked Dr. M about it (she didn’t bring it up, I did) and am considering it are that:

1. I’ve miscarried before. Now we don’t know anything about the causes of that miscarriage. It could have been due to a chromosomal abnormality in the fetus, could have had to do with my hydrosalpinx…who knows.

2. Another CCRM patient stated that Dr. M advised her to try the antihistamine protocol for her second FET because the first (of a chromosomally normal embie) was unsuccessful and she had felt cramping throughout her entire TWW, beginning basically right after transfer. I’ve experienced this in the past after transfers – cramping beginning basically right away and lasting throughout the TWW.

I know the decision ultimately comes down to least regrets. Which decision will lead to the least regrets but that’s the problem…I don’t know.