Ultrasound #2

8 weeks 4 days. Yikes. I know…I still have a LONG way to go but I’m just trying to take it one day at a time so every single day feels like a huge milestone. Friday will mark 9 weeks.

I had my second ultrasound today and everything’s looking good. Baby is measuring one day ahead at 8 weeks 5 days with a heartbeat of 176 bpm. Seeing his/her heart beating is the coolest thing ever. I couldn’t see the screen at first but K caught a glimpse and saw the heartbeat right away…very relieved.

In other news, morning sickness is the pits! I am NOT complaining whatsoever because any and every symptom, no matter how horrid, means that I am indeed pregnant – and that is the only thing that matters. period.

I didn’t have morning sickness with my first pregnancy so I had no idea what to expect but whoa nelly – it’s a trip. I threw up earlier this morning and then as K and I were on the way to our ultrasound we had to make an emergency stop on the side of the road where I proceeded to hurl the contents of my stomach all over the boulevard (luckily I managed to miss our car for the most part). Ewww. Again – not complaining…just in awe of all of this – every single moment.

I hope all of you get to experience this at some point – not the morning sickness :-), of course, but this beautiful gift of pregnancy. It is an absolutely amazing and awe-inspiring experience – especially for those of us who have been through so much to get here.

Surreal

Today was a BIG day…giant day. Ultrasound #1.

It’s been a tough week. I had some spotting and cramping last week – Monday, Thursday and Friday. The spotting was fairly minor – was really just there when I wiped, but it was bright red at times and that, along with some fairly moderate cramping, had me beside myself with worry. The nurses at CCRM talked me off the ledge on more than one occasion, reassuring me that both spotting and cramping (and, yes, even together) are very, very common in IVF pregnancies. I wish that had been enough to put my mind at ease but it wasn’t – Friday was a bad, bad day. CCRM had me start an antibiotic Friday as well – just in case. The way the nurse explained it was that if something could get out (i.e. blood), then there was a possibility of infection getting in, so better to be safe.

Luckily the spotting tapered off Friday evening but I then got a wicked headache that lasted until end of day Saturday. Nausea started Saturday as well, which weirdly enough made me feel better – Nausea is a good sign, right?

Anyhow, no more spotting since Friday (knock on wood), still have some mild cramping coming and going and I’m definitely nauseous. I haven’t thrown up yet but have felt nauseous on and off since Saturday (which I’m not complaining about one tiny bit – it’s somehow reassuring).

I had my levels checked Friday as well and am still struggling a bit with my P4, although Dr. M isn’t terribly concerned. I’m already on suppositories 4/day as well as 1 cc of PIO daily so they don’t want to increase it any further. I’m trying not to worry about it and just trust in my doctor.

And now, finally, the BIG news of the day. Today’s ultrasound went great – there is one, beautifully breathtaking bean inside ladies! According to the ultrasound tech, our little bean is doing great – measuring in at 6.6 mm with a heartbeat of 121 bpm – unbelievable. I am in shock. The tech said that s(he) is measuring a day ahead at 6w4d gestational age. Very emotional day for me. Aside from a few tears, I held it together in the ultrasound room but when we got to the car, let me tell you the flood gates burst. So happy, so relieved….in awe.

Still not out of the woods…don’t know that I will ever truly feel ‘safe’ after what we’ve been through but today things are looking good.