Little Update

Just thought I’d check in really quick.

Everything is going great. I had an ultrasound last week to check on my placenta and low and behold it has moved up and out of the way so I’m clear for a vaginal delivery. And the best part of that day was seeing our little dude again! Oh my has he grown. We got to see him in 3D and it was AMAZING! His features were so clear (clear enough that I could already see resemblances to K and I) and he was moving around like a maniac! He had his eyes wide open and we could see him looking around – so, so unbelievably awe-inspiring. I can’t wait to meet this young man!

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Other than that I’ve been feeling pretty good. Still a bit pukey but not too bad on most days. My blood pressure has been great, I passed my glucose tolerance test…all in all, everything is great and I have zero complaints.

The one thing that’s caught me off-guard a few times lately is the question many people seem to ask (not being aware of our struggles for the most part)…”are you going to have more children?” It always throws me for a loop and I feel a little unprepared to answer. So I usually just respond, “Probably not,” to which some people seem to feel the need to justify our ‘decision’ to only have one child. And then, I usually feel both a little sad and then a little guilty. Why guilty you ask? Well, because I truly feel like we’ve won the jackpot. After everything we’ve been through…six years of this…I know how very, very, very fortunate we are to have this little guy on the way. Believe me…you have no idea how grateful I am. But I also wish, on some level, that we could have another child. More so for him than us. And then I feel guilty because I feel like I have no right to wish for anything more…I’ve already won the lottery of a lifetime. But as guilty as it makes me feel, I can’t help but feel saddened by the fact that someone else had a hand in our chances at having more children. Had my hydrosalpinx been dealt with earlier and we not wasted so much time on treatment without realizing that the treatment never really had a chance with the hydrosalpinx in place, maybe just maybe we would have been able to give our little miracle a sibling. But, alas, this is what life has handed to us and whenever that little twinge of sadness hits, I just feel my belly and thank my lucky stars for the beautiful gift we have been given. This little guy will have more love than he will know what to do with.

Hope all is well with all of you. Until next time.

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This and That

I had my first OB appointment today – it went well. Nothing too terribly exciting. Dr. S has been my OB/GYN for the past several years (and she’s also a family friend) so I know her well and am very comfortable with her. We talked about quite a few things, including amniocentisis, and in the end we’ve decided not to do it. I know there is a small margin of error with CCS-tested embryos, but given the risks of amnio, neither we nor Dr. S felt that the amnio was worth the risk. We have the NT ultrasound scheduled for September 26th so if that goes well, that should be it for screening.

In other news, I had some minor spotting again this weekend – just a small amount when I wiped but it was there and red, so that freaked me out. I had a bit Saturday and then a bit again yesterday. I’m hoping it’s just from the suppositories but it always scares the crap out me. I’ll be very glad to get these suppositories over and done with – I’d take the PIO injection over the suppositories any day.

Sadly, I had to cancel a get-together Saturday with local blogging friends Lisa and Iveta due to the spotting. I was super disappointed but the spotting had me pretty freaked and I wouldn’t have been great company. Hopefully once this scary first trimester is over, we’ll be able to reschedule.

The “morning” sickness has been relentless – I’ve pretty much felt like I’ve been on a spinning carnival ride for the past few weeks – I hope it goes away soon. Luckily I haven’t been vomiting non-stop though, usually just once or twice a day. As miserable as the nausea is, it does continue to reassure me that I’m still pregnant so that’s the bright side.

Other than that, not too much to report. Oh the only other thing that’s driving me nuts – my stupid blood pressure. I don’t have high blood pressure but every single time I’m at the doctor, it’s elevated. It’s super annoying because when I take it at home, it’s always around 117/78 but at the doctor, it’s usually over 130. I know this happens to some people but I wish it wouldn’t. It freaks me out. I think next time I see Dr. S, I’m going to take my monitor with me just to see how closely it reads to hers to make sure the readings I’m getting at home are accurate.

Hope everyone out there is doing well. Thinking about my friend from My Fertility Blog who has had a rough go of things lately. Hoping that her one little embryo passes CCS testing and brings her the baby she’s waited so long for. This is such a tough road for so many of us.