Anyone out there?

It has been a long time, yet again, since I have posted. Life has been busy.

Jacob is now nine and a half months old. Really? Where did the time go?

I still have to pinch myself to believe this is real. I have a son. This is my life. Me? How did that happen again? Oh right…years and years of infertility treatment. Right.

No, I definitely haven’t forgotten all that I went through to bring this little life into the world – it was a lot. It felt impossible at times. I almost gave up many, many times. I felt beaten up, hopeless, and wondered how much more I could take – physically, financially and emotionally.

But somehow, some way I hung in there and as fate would have it, it worked out. I got pregnant and I have the child that I so desperately longed for. And he is wonderful. I love this little boy more than I ever thought I could love someone. He is an absolute joy and I love every single minute with him.

He’s doing so well. Growing like a weed and is just a super content, happy little guy. He eats like a champ, sleeps on a schedule and loves, loves, loves people. He isn’t crawling yet and I don’t think he’s going to. He’s always hated tummy time and now he just wants to stand all the time so I have a hunch he’s just going to go straight to walking.

I was very fortunate and able to take advantage of my year long maternity leave this fall and join my mother-in-law at her winter place in Arizona for six weeks. It was so nice to escape the cold weather and spend some time with Jacob in the warm sun. I’m hoping we will be able to go back for two or three weeks in February or March. It’s just so much easier to entertain a busy baby in the warm weather than up here in the arctic tundra!

I’ve also decided to take a bit of an extended absence from work. My paid maternity leave ends at the beginning of April, but I won’t be returning to work until the beginning of September. I am very lucky in that my employer is very flexible about leave related to family obligations and they are supportive of me taking this extra time off. Although it is unpaid time off, it is more than worth it to spend some extra time with my guy before heading back to the world of work. I love being home with him and am very thankful for this opportunity.

Here are a few pictures to catch you up since my last post.

Halloween

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Pool time in the Arizona sun

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Posing for Christmas pictures

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First sled ride

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I’m 6 months old!

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Crazy…I can’t believe it’s been six months already. It scares me how fast the time is going.

I won’t even bother apologizing for my lengthy absence from blogland. I have come to accept that I will post when I can and try as hard as I can to keep up with my longtime blogger friends’ lives. I still read your blogs as often as I can but just don’t seem to have the time to do much else. My life is insanity.

2013 has been a crazy year for us – so many changes, some very tough times and, of course, some absolutely beautiful moments with our miracle boy. We have lost some very special people this year, including K’s dad, whose tragic passing I have discussed in past posts and, more recently, my beloved uncle – an amazing family man and renowned Canadian physician and microbiologist who, through a very courageous act before his untimely death, used his influential voice to bring forward an important issue for all Canadians. He was an incredible person and his passing has left a huge void in our family. On top of all of this, my mom had a stroke six weeks ago and so we have been busy dealing with the aftermath of that. She is doing fairly well, all things considered, but we have had to make some major life changes for her, including her long-term living arrangements.

These are just a few of the many, many curve balls that have been thrown at us this year but we’re hanging in there and doing our best to manage everything.

Jacob is amazing. He is a wonderful little boy – so, so happy – such a great personality. He makes people smile wherever we go – people always comment on how happy of a baby he is – smiles for everyone. We definitely won the lottery with this guy.

He is doing so well. Sleeping through the night – he loves, loves, loves his sleep. He just started on solids and is loving eating so far. Whenever I bring the spoon to his mouth, he opens wide and sticks out his tongue – so cute! He also recently ‘found his voice’ and has become very vocal – singing all the time. It cracks us up. We are excited to be escaping the Canadian winter and heading south for a few weeks soon. Grandma has a condo in Arizona and we are really looking forward to our little getaway.

It’s been a very tough year for us on many fronts but as we enter into our Canadian Thanksgiving weekend we have so, so much to be thankful for…

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Happy Thanksgiving to all my fellow Canadians!

One Year Later…

I can’t believe that one year ago tomorrow, on July 25, 2012, I was reunited with my two precious embryos that I worked so, so hard for. Six years, one devastating loss, four IVFs, three FETs, one major surgery and….finally, finally my baby found his way home and on this day, one year ago, my life changed forever.

Still, as I sit here writing this post and watching my son (MY son…still sounds strange), wiggle around in his bed, I can’t believe that I made it to the other side. If I think too much about it all, it brings me to tears. It was such a long, lonely, hard…incredibly hard, journey to where I am today but worth every single tear.

July 25, 2012. This day will forever be stamped on my heart and crystal clear in my memory. Miracles do happen.

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I’m Still Here!

Life has been BUSY – hence the lack of posting. I’m lucky to get a few minutes a day to check email, let alone sit down and write a meaningful post – this mom gig is no joke! It is HARD but more rewarding than I ever could have imagined. Each and every day I grow more and more in love with this beautiful little creature. He is perfect beyond my wildest expectations and I am so grateful that he came into our lives and that I have the privilege of being his mom. 

Here are a few pictures. The first was around 10 days old and the second and third around nine weeks. I love the pout – it’s probably my favourite thing next to the huge smiles!

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